Looking Back…

We go through a host of different experiences throughout our lives, which brings about so many emotions, both good and bad. My life thus far has been just that, too many experiences that have made me change my opinion on life, people and especially love. 7 years ago, the love of my life proposed to me and that got me thinking about my decision to get a second chance at life and love. I was a single parent at the time, so the decision was not just taking myself into consideration, but that of my 13 year old son. Although, my husband went about doing everything the right way, in terms of asking my parents and son permission to surprising me with the most romantic engagement ever, there were plenty of moments of utter fear at the thought of sharing my life with someone again. There were moments of euphoria coupled with endless feelings of nervousness and uncertainty. There were moments of confidence coupled with anxiety and elation, all at the same time. I can’t begin to describe the conflicting emotions I experienced during the year I was engaged up to and including my wedding day. I was so petrified of failing not only myself but also my son in this relationship, that at one point, I let that fear consume me.

I have to give kudos to my husband who convinced me on so many levels that he would be the right decision. He in so many ways showed me that he would be the best husband and father. He guided me into seeing that he would never hurt me or go against his vows he made to me and our son. He made me come to the realization that my fears may have been warranted but would never be realised ever again. As I look back on my past 20 years of life, I have to admit that everything sure has changed for the better and the fact that I am able to share my life with you through this blog is a testament to my current happiness at life, love and everything else ❤

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